Life n its Lessons

There are times i question the perseverance that drives me … There are times i question my motives from all this … I dont seem to get an answer but i usually end up with a smile on my face … with a strange thought of hitting a wall which is finally me..

No matter how much someone questions me about my smile that moment or how much i try and see whats beyond that wall .. i can’t

Luck has always been a bitch to me in matters of the heart… i can see it but i cannot touch it … only be touched …

its been 10 years and i am asking myself the same question again .. starting down the same path again .. wiser but none the less a lil pissed to roll my sleeves up again …

if prayers were answered and if the cry of a soul holds some water … i’d say please not again .. as i keep dancing to the tunes i hope nothing but the best …

To find pleasure in numbness is a strange art … and i am getting better at it

Cheers
Timber

Exploring the darker corners of life seems be my vice these days .. i see things for what they are rather then what they seem to be ..

A cigarette may seem the need of a tense hour … a drink may seem the need at the end of a long day … But its not the solution is it ?

When one digs his own hole .. so must he learn to cover them .. and boy what a ride its been so far.. not only have i been covering my holes but also of people who once were …reminds me of a famous quote by Adam Smith

“How selfish soever man may be supposed, there are evidently some principles in his nature, which interest him in the fortunes of others, and render their happiness necessary to him, though he derives nothing from it, except the pleasure of seeing it.” Adam Smith 1759

Decoupling the mysteries of life and the tiny little self  seems to be a everyday routine these days …starts as a thought .. grows as a thought .. wraps around me like the swirl of a wave …and syncs to the heart like the melody of a symphony..

There never was a constant to myself no matter how constant it seemed to others .. there never is a constant to anyone actually and it would be foolish to pin up hopes to …. let alone expectations ….

Someone asked me a strange question today … if i was scared of something ? Yes i replied ..

Of What if you don’t mind me asking ? Me .. its always been Me

Cheers
Timber