Life n its Lessons

Its a known fact.. that choices we make in our lives leads us down certain paths for the better or worse …

I have made many choices myself.. Maybe things would be different today if i did not make those choices… But no one can undo the past … and i would not like to either … i have learnt to live with them in most cases and leave them behind in some cases …. The accountability is and will always be solely mine…

People make choices … and sometimes when you care enough .. you feel accountable for the choices they make… This can often get a little too overwhelming to handle… and over time i have come to realize ..

Individuals need to own up to their choices and no matter how much you care .. In reality you can never really own up to the choices they make..

So as a wise man said once “Condemn none: if you can stretch out a helping hand, do so. If you cannot, fold your hands, bless your loved ones, and let them go their own way.”

We are whatever we are today because of the choices we made in our past .. And we will be whatever tomorrow based on the choices we make today…

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

I woke up with morning… Checked my emails as usual …Was a little surprised to find an email from someone with a picture of myself and my dad back in the days…

Its been a while since I saw that picture… but it did bring back some memories

Some good.. and Some bad …

If our life’s were a book…. would you look at each day as a page … a month as a chapter ???  I know I do.. and each day is a master piece on its own … irrespective of how abstract it may seem to others …

I can’t change history nor can I change actions and events of the past … its simply beyond my control… there are higher forces of nature in play here… The unforeseen future may hold in store many such instances too …Shall deal with them when its time to cross those bridges…

One known maxim that drives my life … emotion is like the wind … it will always come knocking on your doors and windows …  whether  we choose to open is a whole different story all together …Sometimes its not worth opening closed chapters in your life … as the end result cannot be changed no matter how you look at it ..

Open chapters are a whole different story …

Cheers
Timber Da Wolf

its funny thing this life .. sometimes the smallest things you do for someone or the smallest of mistakes you commit.. help you in a very very big way ….

For the past 2 years i have been doing small favors for someone i know … it did’nt take much effort nor did it take much time ..never expected anything out of it …

the favour saved my skin this weekend

i remember committing a silly mistake about 2 months back.. considering the situation then i kicked myself for being so careless … i could have just ignored that mistake and moved on with my life … but for some strange reason i still had it in my wallet ..

And guess what … its saving my skin tomorrow

Every man makes mistakes .. i have made countless … some i have learnt from .. some well maybe i will never learn from.. Maybe thats just me .. Maybe life has not thought me a harsh enough lesson to act upon …

But each day that i live … i learn to appreciate life alot more for its wonders….

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

For the past few weeks i have been super busy .. barely have time to stop and think about life going on around me … or even my life the path its headed ..

I get home late at nights .. catch up on some dinner maybe a movie and hit the sack …. i really don’t fall asleep unless i am dead tired … its almost as if i stretch myself to the limits of physical exhaustion …

For the past 4 years .. this question has been hitting me every now and then .. something’s missing ?? something’s missing ?  a feeling creeps in as if my day was not complete…

i have asked myself this question to figure out whats missing maybe a million times .. but never seemed to find the answer…

I have tried going out with friends .. keeping myself pinned down with work .. heading out for some fresh air in the woods … or just being a bum at home … nothing seems to work

With every question in our minds we wrestle with the absence of something

I can want what i want, but i can only get so much before i am relying on others to supply it. And others will never supply everything to my exact specifications.

So i try and make the best of what I’ve got. Not everybody is blissfully happy with the result, but any effort to improve my life circumstances will still be limited to only what i can do about it.

You can center your life on what you lack, or you can center it on what you have.

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

It was a funny evening .. i was out with a few friends at baluchi’s just for casual drinks and dinner ..

During the course of the night friend happened to mention that he is really disappointing he has not had a two way click with anyone post his first wife with whom he parted ways about 4 years back … Either she is not indian or there is no chemistry or her priorities are not matching with mine or she slept with me on the first date.. the list goes on and on

i stayed with the guy for 3 years so i kinda know about the women that he has been dating over the years …and if i were t give my honest opinion .. at 42 … i think he has his bar of expectations set too high..

The second guy who was on the table is 30 something … don’t know him too well but i have heard him talk about his preference a couple of times .. and i honestly thought he needs to look on mars for a match

i know someone who is 56 and single …craves everyday that he had someone special to only talk…

The night was young and drinks where pouring across the bar … but for some strange reason i was stuck in a moment .. a lingering thought …

I first fell in love when i was 13 … with a girl that i saw one glimpse of ..went out with her for eternity.. piratically grew up with her

The second time i was 21 and well took me a month .. but i did take the leap again .. with a real bumpy 4 year ride… almost made it though

The Third time i was 26 ..took me a year … and it ended even before it started

I am 27 now …. “P” is 42 and “V” is 30 something “A” is 52 … hmm

Individual outlook ? Hmm maybe…. but not convincing enough

Man learns with time .. as he grows older mostly with experience…which shapes his perspective. But what man perceives need not always be the truth

The more i thought about it the more i came to terms with the fact .. That its human nature to complicate things…. even if the answer hit you smack in between your eyes…

Ignorance towards others individuality and obsession with our search for perfection often lets one miss out on the small joys of life …

As a wise man once told me.. if you seek mangoes in winter .. you shall find none

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Honest criticism is hard to take…

Most people i have had the pleasure of knowing never question themselves or their actions .. if someone were to question it .. its often perceived as a judgment being passed … when honest criticism all it ever was…

In my lifetime having come across many such people…

Unfortunately some of them have been my nearest and dearest… If anyone knows me as a person also knows i can be a very big critic towards a handful few… What too many people don’t see is there is no fire without fuel… and the guy screaming fire is probably the one who cares the most .. about the situation

When someone stops criticizing you .. its a cause for concern. Giving up on you is the last thing you would want people to do…

Why i do it ?

its simple really .. Self Awareness is a switch .. which some people over their years of growing up simply forget to switch on…

Do i Hurt People ?

According to 9 out of 10 people i know …. say i do …
Do i really ? Or is its just their perception coupled in with a weak heart ?

I have never tried to seek answers to the second question… cause if given an option.. and i cared enough
i much rather be the asshole giving a reality check rather then a sugar coated pill…

Have i used comments made by my critics about my methods/ways  ? .. sure i did.. i questioned my methods/ways and rectified it if i was convinced logically its a flaw…

if one can learn to accept another perception and filter it to meet half way with ones own perception .. i cannot even begin to imagine the possibilities of ones self development ..

Start from where the world.. as it is …not as you would like it to be..

Cheers
Timber Da Wolf

I got asked a question last week.. to which honestly i had no answer …

An axiom of anyone’s practical wisdom when questioned… Can sometimes make it impossible for one to answer..None the less i tired my best

An old maxim goes a single fact is worth a shipload of argument…Well it is

But then arguments can only convene .. When one says A and the other hears A…. Assumptions or a Rigid Perspective when in play can sometimes make one hear B. Which makes the Argument lead into another Argument. Thus making it impossible to convey your point with a statement to an argument that questioned your practical wisdom in the first place. By now you are into a second argument ..

And the Loop Continues….

When you ASSUME too much…. You end up making a ASS of U and ME

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Sometimes i wonder if it was worth it … But then no one can ever undo the past

I attempted a few leaps over the past few months without having a safety net in place…. Murphy’s Law applied i guess.. it was the only time i jumped without a safety net in a very long time and landed face flat…it never happened all those other times when i had the net in the right place..

Managed to dig myself out by 3 feet and have another 3 to go …. i see another opportunity present itself …

My risk tolerance should not be this high considering my age and my responsibilities … it would be a whole different ball game if age was the only determining factor….

Unfortunately my gut tells me and has told me since i was 16… i need to walk that fine line to make up for the lost ground…

Success follows a man who has the ability to stand up after a hit… Learning a lesson from the whole ordeal is a added bonus… But Lessons are learnt from your past and are only applied when certain assumptions are considered in the future…

A second view helps… It might just work if i play my cards right

After all Restlessness and discontent are the first necessities of progress….

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

For the past few months i have been sitting on the sidelines and observing people who surround me …

Sidelines for me is a physical state of presence and a complete mental absence from my surrounding environment .. its a way to leave my baggage aside and just let people play ball with me till i get my answers … its pretty much close to a self imposed mental solitude..where nothing really seems to matter and i am at complete peace with myself

To realize one must be aware .. to be aware one must question …although answers may not always be there.. But in time seeing beyond the surface and knowing intuitive what is right…. seems to find asylum within our hearts…

Innate life with a greater purpose in mind… higher wisdom is always a blessing

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

The day started like any other sunday …

Spoke to a few of my pals in bombay .. my daily routine when i start or end my day … gives me the strength to go on…with a feel good feeling

Was listening to bryan adams when i saw my cell phone ring.. its very unusual for my mom to call me..i answered the phone she told me ranchod uncle had met with an accident on his way back from nasik and had passed away with 3 other members of his family. Only to be succeeded by his daughter in law and grandson who survived cause they where in another car…

Mom is not strong as she used to be.. so many deaths in my family including my dad over the past 4 years has left her a little shaky. i feel bad .. i wish i could be her support system.. i try as much as i can …But then i also have to do things which are for the greater good.. i don’t know a single person who ever got that concept besides my mom who actually taught me over the years..

I understand how she must feel everyone she has known over the past 40 years is passing away one by one .. Very similar to whats happening around me where people are getting married one by one…

Bad Example

But you can never be too serious in life to an extent where you forget the meaning of life itself ..

Humor is a good thing …But the truth is always, against some pretty overwhelming odds..

Sometimes you get the short end of the stick…And if you don’t do something personally to fix it, That’s all you’re ever gonna get…

I don’t know a single man that always got what he wanted without giving up something which he also wanted … The question is and will always be how bad ?

Peace
Timber Da Wolf