Life n its Lessons

There are times i question the perseverance that drives me … There are times i question my motives from all this … I dont seem to get an answer but i usually end up with a smile on my face … with a strange thought of hitting a wall which is finally me..

No matter how much someone questions me about my smile that moment or how much i try and see whats beyond that wall .. i can’t

Luck has always been a bitch to me in matters of the heart… i can see it but i cannot touch it … only be touched …

its been 10 years and i am asking myself the same question again .. starting down the same path again .. wiser but none the less a lil pissed to roll my sleeves up again …

if prayers were answered and if the cry of a soul holds some water … i’d say please not again .. as i keep dancing to the tunes i hope nothing but the best …

To find pleasure in numbness is a strange art … and i am getting better at it

Cheers
Timber

Exploring the darker corners of life seems be my vice these days .. i see things for what they are rather then what they seem to be ..

A cigarette may seem the need of a tense hour … a drink may seem the need at the end of a long day … But its not the solution is it ?

When one digs his own hole .. so must he learn to cover them .. and boy what a ride its been so far.. not only have i been covering my holes but also of people who once were …reminds me of a famous quote by Adam Smith

“How selfish soever man may be supposed, there are evidently some principles in his nature, which interest him in the fortunes of others, and render their happiness necessary to him, though he derives nothing from it, except the pleasure of seeing it.” Adam Smith 1759

Decoupling the mysteries of life and the tiny little self  seems to be a everyday routine these days …starts as a thought .. grows as a thought .. wraps around me like the swirl of a wave …and syncs to the heart like the melody of a symphony..

There never was a constant to myself no matter how constant it seemed to others .. there never is a constant to anyone actually and it would be foolish to pin up hopes to …. let alone expectations ….

Someone asked me a strange question today … if i was scared of something ? Yes i replied ..

Of What if you don’t mind me asking ? Me .. its always been Me

Cheers
Timber

Sometimes you learn whats important in life … For the most part others do too..

I don’t know what defines good or bad anymore .. somewhere over the years i stopped making that distinction …

Finding Solace in the deeds of others is a though ask … but it does sync in with time..

If refraining from judgment was that pinch of salt .. i’d be more the happy for the most part to take it …

Hope standing on grounds of reality always did seem to be the silver lining in the sky …

But sometimes my mind wonders why ?

Cheers
Timber

Just the way i like to start things… Better odds i guess when you use a blank slate.

But all these years of working with some intellectual and not so intellectual people makes me contemplate my instinct which has built over the years..

I bump into people ever now and then that have made their millions … and maybe some who are on their way to making their millions

Makes me wonder if stupidity does find its way more often with time … in a so called genius

If a penny saved is a penny earned.. then why is there so much emphasis only on earn …

Maybe its just the high of the cash ringing in that sometimes one tends to forget a business needs to be built to last..

Ability to be lean and mean depends alot on strategy …And Strategy requires a vision..but vision at times can carry you away if you ignore reality in all its gravity..

I don’t know here … maybe i will give it a few more months and be an optimist

Cheers
Timber

Its been while since i wrote .. have not had much to think about lately either ..

Just been floating in between the real and ideal worlds .. i have been waiting for this moment for very long time… After the colossal cluster F#@k over the past two years ..

Everything just seems to be in the right place .. i just need to get off my high horse and show up at the party like old days

What a mess to clean up just when things were looking up i feel as if i have come full circle in the past 10 years.

Tomorrow is  a new day…. Lets hope this time mistakes of the past are not repeated again.. else i will re post this in another 10 Years

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Cheers
Timber

I have not seen a blizzard in new york for the past 2 years .. always wondered when the next one would hit ..and tonight it did

i will miss this place for all the times i have had … not the most pleasant of memories but many hidden joys .. and experiences galore
For all the people i have touched and for all that touched me.. The handful few who stand by as friends .. and many who did not ..

There are nights where i question n there are nights where i make peace .. irrespective of the answer

Simply does not matter anymore …

My transition from a pessimist to an optimist occurred here over the past 4 years … To believe everything or to doubt everything are two equally convenient solutions: Both dispense with the need for reflection….

Discovery can very easily be molded into a creation … its only a matter of individual choice

Cheers
Timber Da Wolf

Form beyond the stars as if someone was watching over ..now and always

Is it really the rain bird ?

Don’t  know where the next two months would take me…  i do know i am walking thru doors i would never wish to open again … Another Chapter comes to a close .. the most dramatic one so far ..

Leaving behind four facets so near and dear … that i thought i would never let go .. memoirs they shall be…

Looked upon the stars and wished .. Sacral Nirvana i did’nt expect

As i move to the tune of life….The spirit still dreams and the mind still drives…like it always has ..

From the ashes rose a phoenix … now its just a man ..

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

I wished upon an star ..like we all do

Little did i know the truth would unfold quick .. He is a master of his art i was once told ..

For now i truely belive … Events in the past may be roughly divided into those which probably never happened and those which do not matter anymore.. Circumstances around me do not make me who i am..  Only brings out the unknown..

Galileo once quoted

“All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them”  

Unconventional was always the key …

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

The essence of feelings is a lot more then the every day words we use to express them..

Expressing your feelings is an art ..

Dip the words…. with the colors of your soul … and see the wonderful pictures one paints..

Maybe this is the last mile … Maybe its time to cut a corner ..

Maybe its not a zero sum game anymore .. Maybe it never was ..

Dealing with the feeling of uncertainty was never one of my strengths .. maybe its my heart that saw me thru for all these years…

One foot on the ground the other in the air … hmm.. where should i put this …

I don’t know if the events that transpired over the last few weeks were a sign ..  or maybe its just my mind playing tricks on me …

Sometimes i wish if the signs were not as vague as the they seem … But then again if signs were always this clear would’nt we all be in a place where we want to be …

There is not much to decipher at the end of the day … i am just a creature of habit

 its all about rideing the next wave … i think ….

Peace
Timber Da Wolf