Blank Slate..

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Just the way i like to start things… Better odds i guess when you use a blank slate.

But all these years of working with some intellectual and not so intellectual people makes me contemplate my instinct which has built over the years..

I bump into people ever now and then that have made their millions … and maybe some who are on their way to making their millions

Makes me wonder if stupidity does find its way more often with time … in a so called genius

If a penny saved is a penny earned.. then why is there so much emphasis only on earn …

Maybe its just the high of the cash ringing in that sometimes one tends to forget a business needs to be built to last..

Ability to be lean and mean depends alot on strategy …And Strategy requires a vision..but vision at times can carry you away if you ignore reality in all its gravity..

I don’t know here … maybe i will give it a few more months and be an optimist

Cheers
Timber

Scope of Vision

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What a man sees and decides to accept .. defines the scope of his vision..

Its strange why that thought passed me by tonight .. i have just been in this mode to question the status quo …all this week

Sometimes i wish i could replicate myself with teaching a few people i know .. Unfortunately an experience can only be shared on a table with words .. What one takes off the table makes all the difference to the end result …

For the most part i prefer to reserve my thoughts.. i know many people have questioned this approach … and they have every right to…

But sometimes its difficult to explain a thought with words or examples … when its abstract .. Only if i could make sense of it and have some definitive shape to express …

Half baked beans never did taste right ..

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Find One .. Or None

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It was a funny evening .. i was out with a few friends at baluchi’s just for casual drinks and dinner ..

During the course of the night friend happened to mention that he is really disappointing he has not had a two way click with anyone post his first wife with whom he parted ways about 4 years back … Either she is not indian or there is no chemistry or her priorities are not matching with mine or she slept with me on the first date.. the list goes on and on

i stayed with the guy for 3 years so i kinda know about the women that he has been dating over the years …and if i were t give my honest opinion .. at 42 … i think he has his bar of expectations set too high..

The second guy who was on the table is 30 something … don’t know him too well but i have heard him talk about his preference a couple of times .. and i honestly thought he needs to look on mars for a match

i know someone who is 56 and single …craves everyday that he had someone special to only talk…

The night was young and drinks where pouring across the bar … but for some strange reason i was stuck in a moment .. a lingering thought …

I first fell in love when i was 13 … with a girl that i saw one glimpse of ..went out with her for eternity.. piratically grew up with her

The second time i was 21 and well took me a month .. but i did take the leap again .. with a real bumpy 4 year ride… almost made it though

The Third time i was 26 ..took me a year … and it ended even before it started :)

I am 27 now …. “P” is 42 and “V” is 30 something “A” is 52 … hmm

Individual outlook ? Hmm maybe…. but not convincing enough

Man learns with time .. as he grows older mostly with experience…which shapes his perspective. But what man perceives need not always be the truth

The more i thought about it the more i came to terms with the fact .. That its human nature to complicate things…. even if the answer hit you smack in between your eyes…

Ignorance towards others individuality and obsession with our search for perfection often lets one miss out on the small joys of life …

As a wise man once told me.. if you seek mangoes in winter .. you shall find none ;)

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Its been a while ..

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Its been a while since i have been this numb … but sure does remind me of the days ..

Sometimes i wish if it was my ego …..would make it easier on me and make it all my fault ..

Over the years for some strange reason i have put my best foot forward always to maintain relations with close friends and loved ones .. no matter how bumpy of a ride i may have had with them …

if you care enough for someone to a point .. where it doesn’t matter who’s fault it is .. An apology doesn’t take much effort as my dad used to say …it doesn’t matter if you have to put down your pride .. but it does matter if it was your self respect

Realizing  the difference between the two doesn’t come easy … takes alot of falling and even more a strong heart ..  sometimes our emotions get the better of us .. but its ok no man is ever right always and experience only comes with bad choices …

Everyone one including me has made them … such is life keep moving

Peace

Timber Da Wolf

Best of both worlds

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Everyone knows the grass is green on the other side … Yea well its green on both sides its just that we tend to oversee the lush patch we stand on …

Most people i know wish they had the best both both worlds .. i wished the same for a long time until recently

Its funny ordeal the past three years while i was in new york i wished i was back home in mumbai. Playing with my dog… getting wet in the rains .. hanging out with old buddies .. The NY Rat race got to my nerves . its a world too material for me to live in …I had some great times there .. Made some great friends and have a bag full of memories i’d cherish for the rest of my life… But something was missing..

About 9 Months back i got offered a transfer back home.. Felt like i hit the jack pot. 3 months in mumbai and 1 in new york.. get paid the same amount. i figured i’d move back and get a feel of mumbai again.. if it works out i’d stay back for good if not i’d pack my bags and move back to NY.

At first everything seemed fun … canceled my lease .. gifted out my media center .. and furniture .. packed my bags and got home.. took me a few months to settle down back here with stuff ..with the constant traveling .. Work was rather chilled out .. Only took a few hours of my time. Considering my professional background it was childs play..Met tons of old friends had some great times … Ah home cooked food finally .. But something was missing ….

Why ? Well i had the best of both worlds ..Have everything i have ever wanted ..well not everything but almost everything besides a good woman … and a Enzo :)

Women anyways never a concern … always been in and out of relations .. really long relations now that i look back at them ..

But an Enzo i want :) Anyways getting my wandering thoughts to ground zero

i took a sabbatical for a few months from work n things around in general to figure out .. Even delayed my long due trip to ny…what was really missing..

Couldn’t figure it out

I am headed back to NY in jan for a month and i am dieing to get there … its winter yipeee … boy i miss the snow and the sub way rush .. the morning coffee from the deli … and the sandwiches shane made for me every morning … Ummm um ummm

So what was really missing … Heart ? Well Maybe … Maybe Not .. if you ask me i couldn’t get my heart anywhere but a snow covered peak near a lake … with a nice log cabin .. Maybe i am pushing my luck too much :)

I already have the best of both worlds and now i am putting my heart in a 3rd one …

The path to seek more then you have is a never ending journey …Each one of us walks that path every second of our lives ..

The path maybe never ending .. but our lives have to end at some juncture ..some earlier then most … its difficult to find contentment and stick to it for a long time .. Envy .. Well thats just a part of humanity … One is always looking at the other and wishing

The bottom line is … You can always keep craving for what you don’t have … But one definitely needs to find contentment in what he or she holds… Even if you had the best of both worlds .. Human nature is such that it would always create a 3rd one ..

At the end of the day .. Life is nothing but a journey and we the travelers… seeking a destination which has no known constant bearing with time …….and never will till the end of our time..

This is your life now … Make the best of it …

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Time we have left …. put into perspective

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Out of all my crazy thoughts this one by far is the most scariest or at least gets one thinking …

I remember sitting across the table with a friend of mine talking about how time flew by and now that he is 30 and i am 26 … Half our lifes have almost passed us by…

He Said ” I want to call it quits by the time i am 60.. don’t wanna live post that”
it triggered a thought in my mind … thought i’d bust his chops

Me: So your 30 … You think you have another 30 years left to live your life …
Him : Yes
Me: Ah… “with a evil smile”
Me: hey did this thought every occur to you that 30 years flew by so quick cause you were sleeping for 15 out of the 30
and you would do the same for the remainder 30.. So technically .. you only have 15 years left to live
Him: Looking at me stunned he said ” You got me thinking there buddy .. its a scary thought.. Just when i was thinking i have enough time to live my life”

Never told him this … but it was a scary thought for me too which i happened to put off as a joke ..

Think about it … i know i did that night

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Wisdom does not come with age …

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With Age Comes Experience …
With Experience comes Realization…
If realizations are are put to thought ….comes wisdom

Thus with age comes wisdom is untrue :)

I have met a number of people in life young and old, smart and dumb for some strange reason i still don’t know why i can’t seem to underwrite anyone.

i am fascinated with the idea of understanding human nature and what better way then to look around into people around you.

i am not sure which juncture of my life i came to this conclusion but it has been a blissful realization. Everyone knows “You Live.. You Learn” Life teaches every one lessons.

But did it ever occur to you if you pay a little extra attention to conversations you may have with people or by observing people in situations and their actions .. You might actually learn something life taught them

its food for thought .. For the past 10 years i have been speaking to a man at least once every few weeks. Every Conversation i have with him i seem to derive something useful.. i feel blessed to learn something from someone in 10 years what may have taken that man 55 years to realize…

Peace
Timber Da Wolf

Stay Hungry…. Stay Foolish…. - Steve Jobs

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This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Value has a Value only if its Value is Valued …

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A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a Rupee 500 note.
In the room of 200, he asked, “Who would like this Rupee 500 note?”
Hands started going up. He said, “I am going to give this note to one of you but first let me do this.” He proceeded to crumple the note up.

He then asked, “Who still wants it?”
Still the hands were up in the air. Well,” he replied, “What if I do this?” And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. “Now who still wants it?”
Still the hands went into the air.
“My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did
not decrease in value. It was still worth Rupee 500/-.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

You are special. Don’t ever forget it! Never let yesterday’s disappointments overshadow tomorrow’s dreams.

A mind is like a parachute ?

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A mind is like a parachute…. It only works when its open :)

Give it a thought that line has a hidden meaning behind it which can transform your life…

The day that line came to my notice a couple of years back …. it intrigued me. i looked back at all the decisions i made in life good or bad and came to a conclusion if maybe i looked at it with an open mind the outcome would be very different and i would be maybe in a different place …anyways since i can’t turn back time till some one invents the time machine there is no point me regretting anything i did … But i could adapt an open mind policy to make the best of life going ahead.

To my surprise i was alot more content with my decisions. So Content that never in life post that i needed to give a second look.

Individuals often make their decisions based on their experiences in life or perspective towards issues or maybe even a relation shared with an other individual … At a point in my life i did too But ….

Doesn’t that really cloud what one maybe looking at ? And influence them to sway in a direction which they shouldn’t ?

An approach with an open mind really does change your life…

Peace
Timber Da Wolf